You may have noticed that it's been awhile since I've written. You did notice? I bet you didn't know that in addition to not blogging, I haven't written a letter, journal entry, or even a newsy email in a while either. Why?- you may ask.
Here's the thing. I'm in that place. That place in my life where it's almost six months after college graduation, I'm about to face student loan payments, and I still don't know what I want to do with my life. As frustrating as this sounds, I'm really not that anxious. I think a lot of people are a bit concerned, but I know everything will turn out great. It's just that I figured I'd probably go into the writing field, since that's what I studied in college. I overlooked the fact that I chose that major, not because I was good at it or even especially liked it, but because it was something that incorporated two hobbies of mine- reading and writing. It just finally hit me that those are only hobbies! It is what I want to spend the rest of my life doing. For me, a job will never define my life, and so it doesn't really matter what I do to pay the bills. I just know though that I can't ruin my love and passion for the written word by making it work.
That is why I have not been writing lately. As soon as I started job searching, my brain associated writing with work and went into shut down mode. I'm not sure what job I will have in the future, but I know that I will never make the mistake of trying to define myself with the job title I hold. "Writer" sounded good to me, because by definition, that's what I am. However, I'd rather leave it as a hobby, so I can continue to enjoy it forever.
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