Are You Kidding Me?

It's been said that there will be snow on the ground by morning! I think I'm still in denial....

He never cried in front of me...

How was I supposed to know?
He was slowly letting go
If I was putting him through hell
well - I couldn’t tell
He could’ve given me a sign
And opened up my eyes
How was I supposed to see?
He never cried in front of me
Without a doubt, I know now
How it ought to be
Because he’s gone and it’s wrong
And it bothers me
Tomorrow I’ll still be asking myself-
How was I supposed to know?
[adapted lyrics from She Never Cried In Front of Me by Toby Keith]

The Dynasty

Here it is...Kate Camden (my big), Meghan Bartnick (Kate's other little), Joanna McCullogh (my little), and Kate Butters (Joanna's little)!!

The two newest twinks in our fam are Genevieve (Meghan's little) and Brigid (my little).

Ahh, I love our family ;)

A moment for a reminder

No matter what kind of relationship structure you are in, dating, being married, part of a group- family, team, class, or sisterhood, the Golden Rule still stands tall and proud as the SINGLE MOST IMPORTANT thing we've ever learned about relationships, and we learned it in kindergarten. "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you." It's simple; it's basic; yet, it still isn't getting into some people's heads. The way most see it, there are two ways of treating a person, you either love them or you hate them...we hear this expression all the time. But have we forgotten one important emotion? What about the people that you nothing? They don't receive your love, but don't even deserve your hate. I, for one, am deeply hurt when somebody nothings me, much more than if they would just hate me. So, in following the golden rule, there is not one person that I nothing. Think about your day to day, is there anybody towards who you act indifferent? If there is, well, you should think about heading back to grade K. Put yourself in that person's shoes and you'll realize what a lose/lose situation it is to be nothinged. We're adults now, so in this stage it is important to take this rule one step further. What do people do for you? Have you returned the favor? If we assume that everybody is following the golden rule, then they are doing for you what they themselves would wish you could do for them! The girl that always invites you even if she knows you'll say no?...Somewhere deep inside of her is a longing to feel like she belongs and have the same considerations shown towards her. In case you're not already really confused, let me just point out one more thing. In any relationship, there are so many pitfalls; lack of communication is one of the biggies. For example, your girlfriend has a need but doesn't express it to you. How will things ever change? We need to break down the walls...help each other...love each other...need each other...pray for each other...be for somebody else what you would want for you.

They know best

I had one of those nights last night where I was too tired to do anything other than lie in bed, but my mind was too awake to actually fall asleep. For some reason I started thinking about something that happened a long time ago.
I was about seven years old and I was sitting at my kitchen table playing with fuse beads. Remember those things? I was making some rainbow colored something when I heard my dad calling me. "Laura!" I ignored it. "Luke, Laura, Elizabeth!" It was a request for the three youngest kids- He wants us to do a chore, I thought. "Come on kids" my mom chimed in, "your dad needs you to come out to the car." There are probably groceries to bring in, or worse, he wants us to clean out the van. Finally, my dad came in and actually found me, ordering me to go outside. I don't remember exactly what I said but I'm sure it was along the lines of- WHAT? Can't you see I'm busy?? When I walked to the driveway though, what I found was my siblings playing with a kitten. On his way home from work, my dad had seen a sign advertising kittens and stopped to get us one.
I'll never forget the feeling I had after that...it was the first time I had ever felt remorse, and it was painful. My stomach twisted and my head felt light. Now that I'm older, I have to be able to use what I've learned to help me on life's journey. I think the mini lesson in all of this is simply, blindly obey God (or those who have God given authority over you, like parents) because THEY KNOW BEST.

Contemplations

Why is it that during my last semester of college I suddenly begin to LIKE school?! I'm serious, my classes are so great this semester. I feel like I'm retaining a lot of information that will be helpful in the long run. Of course, I will only need this stuff because when people hear "English major" they automatically assume that I have authority on what is and isn't a word, the correct grammar of everything, and knowledge of every book ever published. The important thing though is that I'll have a degree...and apparently, somebody told me once (high school guidance counselor...) that I'll survive life if I have a degree. So, basically, I'm set for whatever comes next, but I'm still loving the life of a student for the time being.

JOB FAIR

Finding a job on the internet is a lot like online dating. I've had my profile pasted on www.nannies4hire.com and www.greataupair.com for about a month now and have had a great response! It's fun getting to know people through e-mails, but I'm getting to the point now that I want to make a decision. So, I'll keep you updated on who is the lucky family that gets to have me live with them for the couple of years! Oh, how I wish there was a job entitled "TV watcher" because I would do that! I have a feeling I'd be promoted very often too. I just want to drink coffee, play on the computer, and then go to happy hour...maybe I can work for Dunder Mifflin...

Caller Id

I work at my school's info desk...here is a recent call my co-worker had...

Caller: What time are confessions today?

Switchboard: I'm sorry, they ended at 4:30.

Caller: Damn! (hangs up)